K, the new therapist I am trying, gave me many disapproving looks when I answered her question regarding how I felt about myself. It seemed like her face was saying, ” You? How could YOU feel that way? ” I felt kind of invalidated.
I felt worse as I have tried and failed to change my thinking through DBT. I could not wrap my brain around it at all.
She told me from our few meetings that I was intelligent, kind, and attractive. Why wouldn’t anyone like me? There are lots of reasons, I know, but I am not ready to tell her. She was just trying to make me feel better I think. I appreciated the compliments.
I feel stable. Although I am being promiscuous. I am not manic. Just trying to find something to make me feel good. I am having fun.